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Going back part 2

2011-02-07T00:05:00.001+08:00

Do u still rmb how we started? Where is our first date? We walked very long ver far.. From tampines to Bedok.. U asked me whether wanna be ur gf . U stretch out ur hand waiting for my ans.. This is how we started to hold hands.. Rmb I got sweaty palm? I was so nervous.. My palm keep sweating whenever i'm with u.. Rmb where is our first date? Is at the zoo. That was my first time going to the zoo. I was so happy and excited. We were wearing the same clothes and shoes.. Tat was so sweet..  I really wanna go back to the time we treat each other so important.. I hate wat we are now.. Hubby, do u know u gave me this chance I was so happy but I still scared.. I happy that u r back with me.. I scared that u will leave me again.. I tot of breaking up but I love u too much that I can't bear to leave u.. We r not close as before.. This really breaks my heart actually. I willing to try best to love u now like how u treated me.. Can we make promise to each other again like I will love u forever? I won't leave u? Can we? Can we make every month on the 5th a very special and happy day for us again? I miss the time how we spent tgt.. Can we really get back? But I really dun wanna let u go.. Can u stay with me forever? I think I will nv find a guy like u anymore.. U r the guy tat suit me the most.. I love u... The moment u wanna leave me my heart felt so empty. I feel like I lost smth very important to me.. After this den I really know how much important u r to me..

Going back

2011-02-06T23:34:00.001+08:00

Alot of thing happened recently. We quarreled, we broke up and now we patch. The feeling is different now.. Our feeling is lost.. We are trying to get back the feeling.. I'm so regretted. U was so nice to me in the past but I didn't cherish it.. I miss the time u alway hold my hand tight kiss me firmly and treat me like a princess.. Can we really get back how we use to be?

2010-07-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

Everything will start all over again!!! I will be fine!!!

2010-07-04T21:14:00.002+08:00

So long nv update..Finally graduated from ITE. Hoped to go Poly but.. my result did not meet their requirement. (So sad) I really hope i got the chance to study again. Lucky me, i got chance to study at Nafa. School fee is not cheap but it deduct from my mum CPF. But.. i got to gone through their test. Wat bothering me is the my drawing sucks & my creativity! I want to take Design in Fashion Merchandising & Marketing. Hope i can pass the test.. I really want to study again!!

Currently working at a freight forwarding company. Juz a temp staff for 4 months only. But if my performance is good, they will hire me as permanent staff. I hope the hire me as permanent staff. i dun want to become jobless. I need money to Survives!!!! HAHA...

With my Hubby for 307 day and tml will be our 10months. Cant wait for our 1 year anniversary. U are the BEST Hubby i ever have. U wake me up every morning, u fetch me to work when u have transport. U come to look for me to have lunch tgt. U get almost all the things i wanted to have so much for me. I appreciate it. Seriously, i need u in my life. Not because u can get the things i want. Is because u shower all your love to me. U treated me better than before. U cared for me better than before. I need u to stay with me everyday every hour and every moment. I want to see u everyday. Looking at u give me peace. HAHA... So stay with me, ok? Dun go anywhere without me, ok? Cos i need u...

Tat's all for today post. I will update once in a while... haha... Nights!

Giving up & Heart-broken

2010-02-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

Pissed off with him during work. The problem was he was so free yet he didn't care to look for me and busy talking with others. Whenever he needs me to help him or accompany to do the work, i will always do it. Cos i love him. But whenever i need him to accompany me, he always said "I'm busy." Ya i know you're busy that is why i didn't angry with him. Whenever i needed him so much, wanted him to be by my side, he was not there. Juz because he wants to save his money, tired and lazy. He always told me he can't afford to lose me. And i believe him. But his action always disappoint me. It isn't the first time he broke my heart. I want to get back how we used to be in the past. But the feeling had gone. We could never get the feeling back. Things had changed so as feeling. Yesterday he chased me out of his house which i will never ever forget it. Since he wants me to leave and i will leave. The moment i stepped out of his house my love for him had ended. We can never get back anymore. What you did is really too much. This time round you had hurt me deeply.

Disappointment

2010-02-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

Do you know how sad it is when someone had forgotten the promises he made? People always make empty promises which everyone knows. But promises are made to be forgotten? I believe its hurt a person's heart. You trust the person so much, believe in all the things he said yet he always don't mean it. So sad right?

I don't know which words or sentence from him should i believe. He don't even sure of what he had said before. So does that mean all the things u said u doesn't mean it at all? Its not i don't want to believe you. Its u can't be trusted. It's alright if you can't fulfill the promise but it's unforgivable if you had forgotten it. I don't know what i can say anymore. Maybe just don't bother about it..

A wordy post

2010-01-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

My blog had been rusty for duno how many months. I had started my attachment (IA) since oct. Going to end soon at 2 feb. Wasnt been good during my attachement. I taking MC almost every week for 1 or 2 days. Got a complain from the HR, Ms Pamela. Duno is my problem or their problem. I had tried my best to do wat they wanted me to do. Watever things they said were opposite. I duno which one should i listen. They said, duno anything or not sure about anything can ask. So i asked them whenever i dun understand but they find me annoying and give me attitude.WTF!!

There's one incident, 1 customer called up to make booking on this particular vessel, i told the customer there isnt any space as this was told by my Supervisor, Joyce. But this particular customer cant understand wat i said like tat. I told her no more space. She said squeeze 1 for her, only 20gp. I insisted telling her no. So this customer wanna talk Joyce as this vessel is under her. I asked Joyce whether she wants to help this customer to squeeze out a space for her? U know wat she told me? "Juz tell her no more space. And i did told u tat this vessel no more space right? Y u still want to ask?". So i told this customer, Joyce said no more space. This customer gave me attitude and scold me, everytime no space no space. Then this customer very irritating and clever. She called Joyce's num and asked for space. Made me so pissed off was tat Joyce give her the space. WTF!!! I was scolded for nth! This happened not only once. It alot of time. They also backstabbing about me. F***All the staffs here are suck man. They like to act, backstabbing each other, so fake lar. I hate this kind of working environment makes me dun feel like coming to work. Drop this topic. Make me pissed off!!!

Let's talk about myself then. I've been working 2 jobs, IA and part time job. It quite tiring for me. No off day for me at all. Even if i take mc also not enough rest for me. Other than working i spent most of my time with my Hubby. Since the day i start my attachment, my temper getting worst, alway quarrel over a small matter. Hubby always the one giving in but sometime he did scold me. There are many things we want to do and many places we want to go. I'm craving for sushi which Hubby promised me to bring me once my IA end. Hubby also promised me to bring me to underwater world after my IA. Hubby still rmb our new yr resolution? We must save money to start our own business.

HUBBY

I may not be mature enough to handle things and feelings on my own.

So i need u by my side and help me.

I alway hurt and break ur heart

but deep in my heart i alway love u.

I will be a good girl and good wifey so tat u and i can last long long.

I will try to be understanding and not being selfish.

I will shower u with more love and care.

Hubby, i love u.

Muackz!

Now talk about my part time work. Got promote to F1-2 so pay is increase. The evaluation is damn slow. I worked for so long oreadi juz F1-2 only. Cheap cake lor. But overall working there is fun juz tat the work is too boring and tiring.

Now the time is 5.13pm. I knocking off at 6pm. Going to get prepare to go and meeting my Girl YanLing at bugis to get her shoes.

stressful life

2009-11-06T00:29:00.002+08:00

My life is getting busier which is good, but somehow its getting stressful now. Things doesnt goes well at all.. Problems here and there. Workload is getting heavier than i thought. My supervisor and other staffs are pressuring me... All these things are pulling me down... Wanna have a break to relieve all my stress.... Today would be a happy and special day, but everything spoilt. I'm sorry, i arent a good gf.

Liar

2009-09-26T02:43:00.002+08:00

wat u had done, will nv get my trust.

Date at the ZOO

2009-09-26T01:11:00.005+08:00

Went to the ZOO with my guy today. Suppose to meet him at 12pm at mrt but i was late again. I always late for the date. haha... feel so sorry about tat.. This is my 1st trip with bf to the zoo so as him. So was kinda excited about it. He was worried tat we could have no time to finish the whole journey. Fortunately, manage to see all animals and took the photo of them. On our way back, we took the wrong bus. Shit! haha.. Suppose to go woodland to take 168 back home. But we took the bus to Chua Chu Kang station and we got to make a longer way back home. Its alright. I enjoyed spending time with him although i was sleeping for the whole journey. haha.. Can't wait for the next trip.. haha..

To Michelle: Happy 1st month!!! Sad tat couldnt celebrate with u....

A happy date!

2009-09-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

Went out with Mr L to his niece's birthday party. HIs niece is really cute, chubby chubby face. Wanna give her a pinch on her fat cheek. haha... Spending my whole day with him was fun and sweet... hehe.. Juz love chatting with him... hoping he can stay a little longer. but he got smth on so got to move. Then later going to meet him.. so happy... Watching gamer later... even more happy.. haha...

[Didnt realise tat i have been falling deep to u every single day when i see u.}

Relax

2009-09-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday

Exam is finally over.. Now it's time to enjoy the holiday!! Went out with caiyun liping and aying for shopping trips. We bought many stuffs. Seriously, i'm going to broke soon... Sigh.. Later tat met salty for movie date. We watched the Dance Flick. Its not bad to me.. quite funny.. hahaha.. After movie, home sweet home.

Today

Woke up very late due to staying up late at night. Went to tampines to have lunch/dinner with a pig den get my stuffs. Nothing much for today... Gonna stay up late again.. Cos i juz took a nap in the evening... Now is 11.31pm, i'm waiting for a call... Gonna plan something for tml if not, i'm gonna be very bored...

completely quiet

2009-09-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

DAY 1

Last night had a chat with Salty. We finally said out our feeling for each other. It seems that we are confusing now. So we suggested we stop contacting each other for a week to sort out our feeling. Today is the 1st day, kinda quiet. No msg from him and no call from him too. But i had msg from my friend. They are organising chalet on the Oct. Well.. i'm quite excitied about it. Hoping can torn overnight there..

Doesnt have mood to study for my exam.. Cant concentrate at all.. Who can tell me wat to do? I'm lost now...

2009-08-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

Wat's wrong with blogger again?! Sigh.. Had been watching movie for the past few weeks. Last night juz watched The Proposal. Tat was a nice movie... Shld watch it.. Final Destination also nice but ending is really damn stupid. Seriously damn stupid. But its better u watch it in 3D. 2D maybe not be tat interesting. This month got alot of movie i really wanna watch. eg coco before chanel, fame, G-force and alot... haha... Gonna spend all my money on movie.. haha... Wanna watch movie can find me.. I'm on with it!! Yeah!

2009-08-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

Ytd went out with my best sister , yl.. Went to Ion Uniqlo, she bought 2 boxer for her dear. Then went to lucky plaza to eat chicken rice and mee soto. She said their chicken rice and mee soto is very nice. The place was fulled and we got to wait for seats. 10 to 15 mins of waiting, finally got our seats. The mee soto is nice especially the gravy. NICE NICE!! Very cheap too.. HAHA.. After meal we headed to far east. I bought a blazer and she bought a pair of coloured contact lens. Went to cotton on to see any new stuffs. Didn't buy anything at there. So we went to shop at bugis. She bought a dress, shoes and accessories and a hat for her dear. For me, i bought a hat for myself. I hope i dun look weird with the hat. If not gonna be a waste.

Waited for my another sister, ss. Waiting for her work to end. She ended at 10.30pm, 11pm den came out. Slow poke lar.. haha.. 3 of us chatting and eating at mac after that cab home. While on cab, ss talked about ghost stuffs in her workplace. Really creeped me out. Yl and me told ss that we going to take lift alone leh.... U said this we dun dare to take the lift. Yl said she will chat me till my house to distract me from thinking of those stupid thing from wat ss said. So i chat with yl till she reached home too. haha.. She scared too.. SS so lame lor.. She said those stuffs yet she was scared and yl got to call her up and till she reached home. haha... Next time dun talk about this stuffs. Its damn creepy.. haha... Gonna plan another shopping trip with them... SWEET!!

I'm addicted to shopping!!!

2009-08-05T17:56:00.001+08:00

Seriously i couldn't stop shopping. I have so much things to buy now... This friday going shopping with ZX. My objective on fri is to buy blazer and half pant. Haha... Next wed going shopping again. This time is going with Caiyun and Ayin. Going to buy a top, short pant and accessories. Duno how much i'm going to spend now. Still got so many things to buy. Oh man... I think i really need to save some money... Hoping that i'm not going to spend over..

Today is my CDN test, hope i did well... But there's some careless mistake.. SHIT.. But nvm, going console myself during shopping. HAHA... Next week will be another busy week. Meeting my secondary school frens for bbq. Maybe going to meet up my woman on the thursday, still got to see whether she's free on that day. The rest of my time will be working and schooling.

juz love myself getting busy

2009-07-30T16:25:00.005+08:00

Ytd is nafa test, hope i pass all the section. After nafa, saw a text from ZX asking me to go out as he was very bored. So we meet up at mrt at 1pm. We headed to Ion cos i havent shop there yet and also wanna see how the new unqilo store look like. Then walked to THE CATHY to watch a movie. I tot the Fifty Dead Man Walking was a nice show, but somehow is quite boring. Must listen carefully to the storyline. Thanks for the movie treats. We had a long long walk. Walking from orchard to clark quake. Chatting along the way. Tat was quite fun lar.. I juz love walking around. Had our meal at the Central at long john sliver. After tat mrt back home.

Today couldnt go to school cos my leg hardly can move.. My musclue are all very tense. I think is because of the nafa and the long long walked ytd. Promise to meet YL for shopping at the evening time but due to my legs problem, i called her up to cancel the trip with her. YL, i'm so sorry that i counldt make it. I will plan the other day and we will have our shopping again. So i'll be staying at home for the whole day and revising my exam now. Exam is on the next wed.. Grr...

Next week onward will be a busy time... HAHA...

For u

2009-07-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

I know u've been reading my blog. Do u know its hurt my heart when u saying and doing all this stuffs? I really duno wat to do to make u stand up again... I tried to ignore u, talk to u and even tried to irritate u juz hope u can really change... I dun wan u to stop at the same point. I wan u to move on.. All u need now is time.. Time will cure everything. U juz got to wait patiently. But i'm happy wat u sent to me juz now... U finally wake up.. I was brighten up by u when i was pissed off. Thanks... Carry on with this kind of spirit. I'm sure u can do it. U are sick now... I hope u get well soon.. and stop making me worry for u... okay? Take care...

Pissed Off

2009-07-25T23:50:00.001+08:00

What happened to blogger? i wanna change my font.. Shit u..

Today is not a good day for me at all.. I damn pissed off. U shld inform me 1st before asking me to go. So last min told me.. And i duno them at all.. i nv heard of this name, j*** before. i totally had no idea who they are.. how u expect me to go along? Even if i know them, u shld tell me 1st and not last min... U nv give a thought for me.. I called u and sms-ed u to confirm with u, yet no reply or return call from u... when i'm reaching there soon den tell me they are going. WTF!!! Now then asked me y i dun join them. Are u stupid or dumb?! If i know them very well, i definitely will go.. Now then start to care for me... Are u treating me as a 3 yr old kid? Pls.. I'm not.. I wont disturb u anymore... BYE BYE!!

Tot would have a nice meal to cheer myself up. End up things are done so badly. I utterly disappointed in u... Wat a friend u are..

Getting better

2009-07-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

Today is quite good.. nothing wrong and no problem.. everything is fine.. Juz that i feel hurt for my phone... Grrh...

Tml will be a brand new day... Will be going out with Caiyun and Ayin for shopping!! Yeah~ Hope its another good day for me.. :) Cheers!

Got to force myself to sleep early again..

Time to change

2009-07-20T22:00:00.003+08:00

I think i need to do some changes in my life and character.
- No more MC for school/work.
- No more late for class/work/date.
- No more laziness.
- Sleep and wake up early everyday.
- Be more responsible in my works.
- Improve my english (me & michelle's goal)
- Save money
- Change my temper.
- Learning new things
- Eat veggie(which i hate the most)

Currently is juz like tat will add on some more when i think of it. haha.. Got to force myself sleep at 11pm.
Nights!!

Leave me alone

2009-07-20T17:44:00.002+08:00

Can u stay out of my life?! I juz wanna a peaceful life.. I dun wan ur care or love. i juz wan u to leave me alone. I really hate u!! Pls get lost!

New start for me

2009-07-17T23:10:00.003+08:00

Changed my blogskin to start a fresh post. My world is now family, friends, work and school. Everything has been changed. Still trying very hard to get use to the new lifestyle.
Supposed to go work at 6pm but due to the big aunty comes so i cant go work! Its damn pain.. I went to see doc alone as i couldn't find some1 in the last min. While waiting for the medicine, my stomach getting more painful, my body is shivering. I told myself i must hold my breathe till my doorstep. (abit dramatic) I walked all the way from polyclinic to my house. Its quite far lor.. Once i reached home, i totally cant stand anymore. The pain getting worst and my legs feel weak. After taken the medicine, asked my mummy to rub my tummy to let me sleep. Woke up around 7 plus, feeling much better but still feel very weak. Now having a running nose!! Sigh..
Hope tml will be better.

i hope:
-u're fine
-u're doing well
-u're happy